I didn't realise how long it has been since I last blogged so I think this is well and truly due for an update.
I finished teaching on the 9th December and my , now ex, boss made it as difficult as she possibly could. Even now I have a sneaky feeling she will try and keep me in her clutches as she said before Christmas that as I would have more free time, I could do x,y and Z for her as she didn't want to ask her husband to do it. I appreciate that he has had a stroke and though recovered, still isn't able to cope with much. But why should I be doing her work when there are three other, younger teachers available?
I must say I am quite depressed at the moment. I had it in my head that once I had stopped work, a miracle would happen and I'd feel so much better. Wrong ! Mentally I am struggling with not teaching and then things started going pear shaped.
Christmas my parents came for the day, along with two friends. It was lovely that mum and dad could make it but a nightmare getting mum up and down our outside flight of steps, to the bathroom , etc. But that was minor to the next event. Earlier in the month mum fell in her house and broke the same hip she broke January 2011. This was when we realised she had dementia. Fast forward to this year, where things are much worse and her behaviour more challenging. She doesn't believe she has broken her hip, thinks my 90 year old dad is having an affair with the Staff nurse looking after her. The MHT have tried to assess her so that we can get the right level of care set up for her but she won't let them. Visiting is a horrible experience as she can't or won't have a conversation, ignores dad and tells us things we know have never happened except in her own mind. Dementia is a cruel illness.
I had my own assessment with the Pain Psychologist and the Occupational Therapist. My 20 minutes appointment stretched into a 40 minute one which I cried most of the way through as I am not coping. Trying to stay normal for my dad as he is staying with us while mum is in hospital but just could not maintain it in front of those two very kind ladies. Apparently I have gone backwards in managing my condition . Not surprising really :-(.
And my BP is soaring, despite 3 lots of medication. I know it is stress but I just can't seem to stay calm inside. The nurse wanted me to wear a 24 hour monitor but I refused as I just could not cope with that on top of everything at present. Not looking forward to my Wednesday appointment. It add the cherry on top, I have a new GP who I have never seen so don't even know if she is fibre friendly or whether she is one of the doctors who think fibre patients are lazy shirkers and that fibre does not exist.
With luck I will keep my blog up to date in future.
