Time has really flown by me and I haven't been here to blog. I decided I had better get back into action.
Well, we have just been through the 1st anniversary of mum's passing and we managed to cope relatively well considering. Lots has happen this last year. In March we went to visit my son and his family as dad was keen to go to see his grandson and great grandsons.. While we were there , my son was promoted to Sergeant and dad was invited to pin his badge on which he did. My son also took him on a short tour of the jail. As my son was on vacation, we went to California to see other family members and we took dad to Disney in California and he bravely tried nearly all the rides.
This Christmas we went over to Canada as he wanted to visit with my sister , his granddaughter and his great granddaughter. He had a fabulous time despite being knocked over at Heathrow airport on the outward journey. We didn't get out much due to some very cold and slippery weather but we enjoyed ourselves and as it was our first Christmas without mum, it gave dad something to focus on.
Much as I try not to let the fibromyalgia rule my life, it has it's own way of twisting in to everything. I have done some one to one work with the clinical psychologist at the pain clinic which was both painful and very revealing. I don't know who I am any more. I don't see myself as worthwhile or of use to anyone. I shall need to work on accepting the new me and accepting that it is ok to be the new me. That will be an uphill battle.
I shall probably blog about it more later but my mind is still processing stuff we covered and it's a lot to get my head around.
I have promised myself a return to 'snail mail" . The art of letter writing seems to be vanishing and I have decided that is sad so am making a stand to write more letters, even if I have to type them! The intent will still be the same.
