Well that certainly sounds a bit naughty but the truth is far more boring. Who would have believed I could get excited about having wrist splints fitted but I have. The sheer joy of being able to hold a mug of tea with one hand has really made me happy. Well, they do say little things please little minds :-).
Not much else to excite me otherwise. Work is a struggle and I have not told my boss what is going on with me. I know she will only dismiss it as she does anything that isn't to do with her. She is still having little digs at me because I have said I won't climb up into the prop loft for her. I did suggest that one of the younger teachers could do it for her and got the reply " no, she isn't fit enough" . Not fit enough? For goodness sake, the girl is an aerobics instructor as well as being a ballet/modern teacher. I love my boss to bits but I have just come to the end of feeling up to putting up with her. I just can't struggle anymore.
Been talking to my husband about what choices are open to me and, much to my surprise, he is all for me cutting my workload even more and doing more with my craft work. Half of me would love to do that, all of me knows it's a good decision but there is just that bit of me tucked away that doesn't want to admit that I need to make these changes. Maybe I will have a better understanding of myself when I have done the FC in Pain Management. We'll see.
Love your blog and will keep reading. As a dancer we are taught to keep pushing and stretching and keep going. This is ingrained and so on that point anyway I totally understand a previous blog of yours when you cleaned the whole house and kept going for the whole day. Giving in is not something that is programmed into us and being told to slow down or stop is totally alien!!! Dancers always had the extra strength and energy over everyone else.Our pain tolerance is very high and I wonder if the agony and struggle you feel is incomprehensible to another person.Put your pain level onto someone else and they may have stopped years ago. I am glad that you are starting to see a little light in the tunnel even if it is only just starting to some through. Please tell me about your craft work. Now that is something I would love to get my hand into
ReplyDeleteI have been sewing things. I can't do much hand work but I have dusted off my machine and been collecting patterns for quilting, Kitchen Witches, Worry dolls, and that type of thing. Just working out how long these various ideas take to make, will cost, and making prototypes. It isn't anything that will be happening soon but it's a start.
DeleteVery true about dancers. We dance with bleeding toes, high temperatures, shin splints, etc. You name it, we've done it. I think the high tolerance to pain overs up a multitude of problems. I also think that being so tuned into our bodies makes us hyper aware when things are not right.
I am glad you like my blog. I have been visiting yours too :-) . I am hoping that blogging will help me come to terms with all this. I have had to leave a school where I taught for 24 years and just teach at the studio but even that will need to be cut. Not sure if doing it gradually is a good idea or whether it would be better to make a clean cut. It has taken me from half term October of last year to settle with having left the school.
That's tough but once you realise that it must be done then you might find that you just want to get on and do it. If you have your other projects it may ease the transition. I guess try not to convince yourself that it will be easy and take each day as it comes which no doubt you are doing already. Blogging may help sort your thoughts. Dont forget you are an artist ultimately and we are fairly good at transferring talents.Forgive the religious tones but I like the phrase; When God closes a door somewhere he opens a window. We just have to look for it. Happy crafting!:)
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