I really need to pace myself and learn to do it really soon. Yesterday I taught all morning then, in the afternoon, decided to spring clean the bedroom. I got so much done, furniture all pulled out, paintwork washed down,mattress turned, etc. Then I sat down and the pain really hit me. I went to bed in pain and didn't sleep. I had my TENS machine working all night and could have cried with the pain. Today has continued the same way :-(
One thing the psychologist said to me was why did I feel that I had to keep going until I was in pain. I think it is because I feel useless now, I am trying to deny having Fibromyalgia. If I don't acknowledge it, then I don't have it. Does that make sense? I still feel lost and isolated.
I am so frustrated by my hubby's jokes. He "tries to make light of it" as he puts it. What he thinks is funny is actually upsetting me intensely. And he just doesn't understand how frustrating and scary the cognitive problems are. How can you get a partner to understand you need support not stupid jokes the whole time?
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