Well, having seen the Clinical Psychologist and received a copy of the letter she has sent to the pain management team ( another psychologist,a physiotherapist and an occupational therapist) and also to my GP, of what she felt came from our appointment together. Basically my goal of wanting to "get rid of the pain" and "return to normal again" is very unrealistic. I think I have finally started to come around to that way of thinking having had a bit of an epiphany following my talk with Dr.T .
How do I feel about this? Sad, lost, and a whole set of other emotions. Dance, especially Ballet, has been such a major part of my life. Now, instead of having the joy of movement, it brings pain. I have not been enjoying my life as I have been too wrapped up in trying to find answers and 'cures' so that I could continue the same path. But the stark reality is that I can't.
I have agreed to do the Foundation Course, a one session introduction to a pain management approach. I was initially doubtful about it but am going for it and I have also come to think I will continue onto the Pain Management Programme (PMP).Plenty of thinking time for me as it is about a two month wait for the FC and nine months for the PMP.
I accept now that this is the best course of action and will be of the most benefit to me. Maybe it will also help me channel myself in new directions. I shall face this with hope.
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